I was telling my mom earlier that this feels like more of hardship for me than my breakup with Miul. I’m okay with it, though. I miss him. It makes me sad but, at the same time, I always like to figure out the answer.
Children Learn What They Live, right? Since I read that on the wall of my house as a kid my life revolved around getting to the end to see what I was learning.
This time it was fun to draw it out for a while, keep the dream alive and all. It was a game, a lesson. I asked for a mentor in life and I got a mentor in love.
It’s natural to have a crush on the teacher, right? Lots of people feel a little lost when school is over.
My little analogy doesn’t work for this next point but… um, maybe it does. Perhaps I should look at this like I graduated and need to decide what’s next in my life.
Quite frankly, I expect to go to an ivy league school. It doesn’t have to be expensive but I want nothing less than to bust my ass to get high grades in someone’s heart (*barf* lol) and earn all the adoration and prestige that goes along with it.
I’m trying to improve every day and I need a partner who can keep up, I want to be with someone who wants to keep up and who pushes me further than I could ever go on my own.
I so wanted that someone to be Unionguy. He is a gentleman. He is respectful and kind. He cares. It drives him crazy sometimes but he is very good to the people he cares about.
He comes from the perfect time, when women joined in the sex as much as men and disco was still alive. Our sex felt like a drug to him. Isn’t that cool?
He just doesn’t need that drug so much that he’s willing to give up his life for it. I can respect that. My biggest issue this whole time was how I could trust someone who would screw around on his girlfriend for three months but, when push came to shove, he did the right thing and redeemed himself. That, my friend, ivy league.
Maybe now it’s time to start working toward my masters?
(To be honest, I was hoping I could get my diploma and just start living my life already. We’ll see what summer break brings. 😃)