Bottom line

I told you I was upset that you didn’t want to be with me. But I forgot to mention that I don’t know if I want to be with you yet either. I’m sure it was insinuated that I did but I don’t know you enough to make that judgement yet.

I would like to explore the possibility; I want to spend some time together. I’m enjoying the sex either way and I guess I don’t want to have a conversation with you because I don’t want it to turn into us not being naked together anymore. I do wonder why you don’t want to be with me. There must be a reason. I hope it’s a good one.

I don’t want to be in a relationship with you. But, obviously, I do need to qualify that with “yet”. I’m exploring my feelings for you, not because I want to know if you’re good enough or if I’m good enough, but because these feelings feel good and I like feeling good. They feel so good I think they could even get better and I think feeling even better than I feel right now would be pretty damn amazing!

Pretty damn amazing would feel nice, wouldn’t it?

You say we have to be careful because the things we do together feel addictive? Maybe it’s addictive like eating healthy. It is good for you. (Do it! lol)

Does it have to be bad for you? Does it have to be wrong?

Or maybe that whole “we have to be careful” is your line? Because I can make that work for me.

The point I’m trying to make is this: I like you. I like spending time with you. I really like having sex with you. I don’t know if I want to be with you in a long term way or not. I don’t even know if I want more than exactly what we have right now. But I want to know. And you having a girlfriend kind of screws that up for me.

It’s not about jealousy or frustration, it’s the fact that I don’t want to be with someone who would screw around on someone else like you are doing with me just to get your rocks off. If you have feelings for me, you owe it to yourself and her (and me) to act on those feelings. But if you don’t have feelings for me, you’re kind of being a dick.

My feelings for you are in direct correlation with the length of time you wait to break up with your girlfriend.

You should know this, I think.


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