Could I be pregnant? It’s possible, yes. All of the things that need to happen have happened. But I’m 45 years old and I have never been pregnant. My period is only five days late, it is rarely a day late. I have no period symptoms. I am old enough that this could be pregnancy or menopause. If it is menopause I welcome it because it will take the other possibility off the table and, quite frankly, if I am indeed never going to have children of my own, I don’t need this monthly gift and all the crap that comes with it. However, if there is a baby, I am in for one hell of a rough ride in so many different ways. And if I am to be honest with myself, I welcome every fucking moment of the hell. I’m probably not , though, right?